.: Fresh :.

Kaoz.. this is the slowest and hardest entry I've ever written. Cuz it involved a lot of mix feelings... & I also dun really know what am I talking about... ~_~

Hmm... So what will you relate this word FRESH to? (Shit man, I find my ang moh super jia lat... FAIL liao... cannot arguementative... very jia lat... ) Anyway, Orange was asking how things go between me and TH. So that's the topic I'm gonna discuss about...

So we met a night (I think it's like months ago) with everything went on smooth and sweet (only for that day). Followed by dozens and millions of SMSes we exchanged. (But the no. of SMSes is crazy.) The feeling is really sweet to have greetings received almost every morning while heading to work. The SMSes just surprisingly brighten up my mornings. However, we dun chat on phone, we only went out once in a group, and practically we dunno much about each other. I think I can only rem he likes strawberry yogurt and marinara too! (same as me...) Hmmm... But I think he is special (at that time). I think I'm just attracted by the charisma & manliness.

So from SMSes we switched to emails. Continue to know more bout each other. & tons of emails too. I think it's because everything is fresh, the interests and curiosity level is high... U just wanna kpo more... grab attention more. (basically, you will just like the attention...) ~_~ But he's always extremely LAGged.

Frankly speaking I hate all those cai cai cai thingy. We chatted but a lot of things never ask nor said. We wanted to meet up again, but time clashes. So ever since after that, we nv ask each other out liao. So (which I dunno since when) from everyday SMS, switch to few days few SMSes.. then every week once?! Sometimes I have feelings like "aiya think we've lost contact liao. He'll not msg me le... & I shall not msg him.. etc etc.. " then suay suay a SMS will pop from him. !_! Like what Orange and I have said... He's strange. & this person lai wu zhong qu wu ying... shen chu gui mo... (in another words "like ghost") How irritating... gao xing lai bu gao xing jiu shi zhong... It's something like the Tong Xin Yuan show. "Hua gu - xin mo!!!" WHAHA Xin Mo = Demon

Kaoz.. I tot once and for all I can delete this person liao, then who knows he came back. Cuz I really hate that kinda feeling. I'm not even the hao peng you, why should I care right? But okay lar, since we no longer contact. & that's good already. *PEACE* Btw, hey it's not like we're together or what lar.. (I sound like I'm kena cheated or something? HAHA nono, dun mistaken) But I think it's my xin li zai zhuo guai. I can simply dun care and forget about this person (maybe not 100% but near to), which I think i am capable of doing. But just can't help it but to ask myself...

• why is he so silent?
• No more friend friend?
• Haiya, lose interests liao...
• Am I just too boring?
• Or simply becuz he's attached...

So siam lo, I have nothing to lose anyway. Furthermore, it would be so much better this way. I won't go and cai cai cai... Since pple dun wanna talk to you, why make yourself available? Lessen one bothering thing. I feel so much better! ^_^ Come to think about it, guys I'm interested in will not be interested in me. *wohohoho* It's always like that. Xi guan liao... But heng lo.. I'm happy now!!! *yeah* XIN MO QU CHU LE!! (Demon is gone!) *whahaha* that show is really funny. Friends always say I suitable to be alone. *haha* I think it's true lar...