.: Talk Cock Session :.

Hmmm... Still using my bro's laptop for my usual "miscellaneous" stuff. Well, I think kor has been freaking busy or just too lazy to help me fix my antique. HaiZ...

Money is an issue man... U know it's only half a month I've already spent more than half of my money. One thing is cuz u have to give ur papa and mama $ That's a must. People always say once u start earning, you'll know money is hard to earn. Yeah true. That's why so many people out there are dreaming or thinking of many many ways to be rich. But I think when you're rich and have too much money, you'll change. How many will ever think to give back right?! *pondering...*

& next thing is I've spent too much on things I can't see. Those intangible thingy like entertainment, transportation, FOOD. I consider FOOD intangible cuz eventually they all become da bian (waste)?? HAHA

Anyway, I can still remember what Kyung Ae asked moon and me bout "Will you choose love or success?"

I told them, right now I choose success. (So did KyungAe) I think I'll concentrate on spreading love to my loved ones. Kekeke* I've decided. I will TRY TO PURSUE MY DREAM next year!!! (Notice I use the word "TRY", cuz I really hope time permits.) I will go for SIA interview too! & with my full-time singlehood, I shall commit myself to freelance modelling as well... I hope my current job will have much space for me. But I doubt university is in my mind for now. I wish to do a lot of things. Listening to Corrinne May's song now. Somehow I would love to learn singing, just like Yan. But I can't help what to think it's really expensive to learn these what you call "interests" or "passion". U can say I am ambitious or whatever u wanna put it. But I have a strong believe now that some things you can do it when you are young and I dunno when I will leave this beautiful world. *touchwood*

Recently, I think I've changed a little. Knowing more of what I want in life (cuz I think I have all the neccessary needs already). I have this mindset of "trying" cuz you'll never know what is the end result. At least I can tell people "I've tried". I used to do things in the wishy-washy way. I find opportunities come fast and unpredictable. In another words they can leave u fast too! Fast decision-making is required. And GRAB!

However I am yet a business-minded person, so dun come and ask me to business-developement with you. HAHA But I think and I know I'm too implusive at times and I really appreciate at times loved ones around me will stop me or pull me back. Thanks babies (you should know who you are). But on the other hand, I dislike hindrance. It just puts me in to dilemma and yes I dislike dilemma too! *Stratch head.. & stop talk cocking cock*

Next next... *Start to talk cock again* It really bothers me when guys start to treat me overly nice. I just can't help but to think...

"Can you dun be so nice?"

"Can you dun be so sweet?"

Cuz no.1 I would think I've owe them something.

no.2 wo shou bu liao leh..

I mean it's okie to be gentleman lar. I love gentlemenSs anyway. But dun be so sweet like my galfriends or majiam like a bf pls. *shake head* Frankly speaking, I would love to think that they have no motive. But I just feel weird. ~_~ I just purely hope that it's some kinda friendship. Haiya, I am bias. If it's a gal who is nice and sweet I would befren them easily and won't think much. (Gals no motive ma...) But guy... *Slap forehead* What am I talking huh? Aiya I still think it's possible to become friends, as long as u dun think too far like any "further development"? But I understand nice and sweet people are all around, so why should I be bothered right? Okie lar I shall befren them, but as usual selectively ba!!! If not like ah zhen, have to drop friend. So mafan righT? HAHA really talk cock session.

Fernie's Random Thought: It's about deceiving and convincing people that you are good.

.: It should be dead??? :.

Sigh... Wanted to blog a nice entry just now sharing my "happening" lifestyle recently. But MY COMP CRASHED. I was happily unplugging my unuse USB cable. Then I plugged in the cam's USB cable, hoping to load the pics of the gals birthday celebration ASAP. *POOF* My comp shut. The screen is blank. There's no sign of restarting. I saw the busy-light blinking. It's freaking slow. Nothing happened. I switched off my comp main socket & switch it on again.

It booted...

Booted with a warning.... blah blah blah... Saying my "CPU has changed" "Pls key in the CPU speed and remember to save when exit..." blah blah blah...

"F1 to continue, Del to Setup"

Of cuz I F1 lar. And yes I got into the windows. Everything's not right. Can't open anything. Everything's slow. I can't shut down my comp officially cuz it just dun work. Yeah CRASHED. I believe it's SUFFERRING from some Bad Sector tumor. F**K

Deduction: I plugged in the cam USB cable together with the charging cable connect to the desktop charger. And the charging side is switch on. I conclude that there's a sudden surge of power getting into my PC crashing it.

Fact: My comp has recently turned very very unstable after the loading of many many huge pics. TMD!!!!*

DAMN! & I have a habit of not switching off the main socket and just pull out the cam/hp/etc etc. So suay. It's dying I believe. I hope Dr M. Tok (My ah kor) can save my beloved desktop. (Sobbing) I hope all files can remain. I hope the bad sector (if there is) would be on the old C drive not the new one. If not sure damage. *TO LONG AH~!~!~!~!* No money le.. ~_~ SobZzZz Pls pls... I hope nothing bad happens. As least boot it properly and let me save all my pics. I'm so afraid to lose them... So dumb of me... haiZzzz

.: Officially Working :.

Hee* I left office at 8pm+ Thinking I can take a cabby home, BUT in the end my bus 73 came earlier. The cab queue is long and sad to say I HARDLY SEE A CABBY!!! I was slowly doing my things cuz I am trying to get the hang of the new task. I skipped the modelling training. Tot can see Ivy, but too bad we can't meet again. ~_~

Hmmm... I'm trying hard to learn new things and get things right. On the job training just seems a lil too confusing at times. Setting the new delivery date is a headache. How many days to add and etc. & I should say that system is very "friendly" and not very updated too. *slap forehead*

Anyway, I enjoy working with the new colleagues. They're very nice. Memec people are also very nice too, esp those I work closely with (Like Esther, Michelle, and newly-join Joyce) They are the ones teaching me dozens of things from Memec side. *take deep breaths*

Went to lunch with colleagues from Wendy's side. *haha* Cool. Cuz I was helping Wendy to set Out Of Office msg and wen's boss invited me to join them for lunch. Had the POWER MEE REBUS near Kovan side =P~ Drools. It's delicious I can say. Very long nv eat such yummy mee rebus. *drools 2nd time* Oh ya, ji paiseh, Fion treated me. =P Thanks thanks...

Damn... I am hungry now...

PS: I was sleeping and I woke up to remove my contact lenses again. *haha* Had a shower to cool myself off as well. So I'm awake and very hungry now!!! ~_~

*food search*

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*drools*