~TA DA~

Aiyoh... So long never blog again. Just went to check out some of the others' blogs... nice one Zhen~! Finally a non-sammi-pic blog. I like the butterflies! & that green!!! Accompanied by a nice Sammi song. Damn man, can you tell me where do you put your songs? The server banned me cuz I violeted their rules to upload songs. TMD

Anyway, what a busy busy May. Finally I went to a trip. Avnet retreat at Bangkok. Changed a $250 to shop but regretted cuz I bought so little things and I seriously dunno how to bargain too much. Sian 1/2. I think I did better during our last year's HK trip. Maybe cuz jie and Orange were around. Hmm can go back again, but pending lar, I am so freaking broke now. Super sad. Why incentive must delay leh!? WHY?~! (*Blink* TMD...)

Happy birthday to the May babies. You all must be very happy to receive many many wishes and presents ^_^ May u all stay young and happy~! Forever 21 wor... ^_^

Happy Mommy's Day. I've learnt my lesson never to buy bird nest for my parents. I shall make all gifts to be Ang Bao --> the most most most realistic GIFT. Cuz I was being "lectured" for wasting money on those lousy bird nest & etc... I suggest the rest also do the same and give ang bao suan le. ~_~ Anyway, at least they appreciate my thoughts lar (50% I think???) Yee... *slap myself for wasting money*

Oh I miss my ah da!! He's in China now, attending a friend's wedding and also to relax relax. Sweet of him to call just now to asked for my shirt size. Haa, someone's buying me clothes wor. Haha think he's buying me something associates to him --> STRIPES TeeS! *haha* I miss him~! But good lar, he's coming back tomorrow ^_^

Upcoming??? I pray that I will get thru the last round and say goodbye to the semi-conductors industry!~ Yes, to pursue a dream of mine! Something which I think will be more satisfying...

Fernie... FIGHTINGx2~!~!

Stewardess

Big sigh x10...

For the first time I encounter a big NONO from him... I told him I wanna go for a try for the upcoming SIA interview. I think the air-stewardesses must have owe him some things in life. It's a immediate rejection from him. The feeling is horrible...

For those who know... I do & I did mention my interests in being an air-stewardess, maybe not as much as those who are really into it. Anyway, for many times I told pple that I wanna try out a stewardess role, 9 out of 10 will ask me to go try it. So the 1 is him... the one whom you want and hope for some encouragement and support. Thou it's only1, but it seems so significant. For that 9 out 10, I used to take for granted that everybody wants me to go for it. I mean it's not that I think I will get in, but at least I can say I tried. Even if one day I choose to give this idea up, I can still tell myself, I tried once isn't it?

He said things like... I dun want history to repeat itself, I've heard so much about them, You'll change, I'm not lying to you, it's dark there, the gals are materialistics... ETC ETC ETC...

Think the ex has seriously spoilt the market of having a stewardess GF. So you'll lose your partner if one gets there??? Hai... I'm confused, really... I've never really have so much interests to try something so much, think this is one of the rare few. & how disheartening a simple thing can piss off your loved one. I dunno how to communicate to him... It seems like I can't assure him cuz I believe all the assurance was ruined by the ex or I have no 100% guarantee? Ya, no one knows the future...

Things change, people change... My attitude towards him changed immediately... My feelings towards him is altered some how... I dunno... Thou the feeling of being controlled is not as strong like the previous. I hate being controlled. I remember I told friends I hate barriers!! But ya where will things always go so smooth, right? He keeps saying things like I hope you understand, I know I'm selfish, but I still dun allow...

You know when people oppose me so much, I will feel like challenging them. I want to prove them wrong. I wanna keep my stand. I will do things to hurt them! It's so hard to give up. I do things willingly, especially when it involves much of my emotions. I hate to be so obligated...

I choose my way... I'm putting this relationship to test... I think he has not seen the real me. The ugly side of me which my parents know so so well. I'm stubborn... terribly stubborn & ignorance & I escape... *ARGH STOP CALLING ME!!!!"*

Looking Forward

Yoyo! I'm looking forward to payday!!! Hmm... Once again, I'm facing difficulty in saving cuz as usual my spending is crazy. Hmmm... I aim to save up more next more. I hope I can...

My Friday... Met up with darling and friends. Catch Neal's & Pet's Wedding DVD at Steve's place. Played bluff using dice (I finally know how to play that now) & played with Neal's new cam (Damn it's freaking hard to use professional cams) Then the video... Ooo... what a memorable wedding for the couple ^_^ & yes, nice flashy cars being captured too. What a group of car freaks...

My Sat... Tag along to Defu Lane to sell off Ben's car stuff with darling and Joey. So Joey came over to my house to be my guest while we waited for the workshop to swap the parts to another owner. So she introduced to me PangYa. I'm trying to figure this out o how to register... Man it's a hell lotsa Korean words~~~ I need help from Christine!!! ~_~ So later I went out with Joey! Haha think that lady is really interesting and always full of energy! Thanks to her I managed to get M.A.C products with 20% discount, cuz media corp artistes have that special privilege. Well it's my first time coming by a local actress, surprisingly with no airs too. She somehow lightened and brightened my day too. Eat with me, shared with me dear's thoughts which he himself never really talk about, just like a big sis... and yes she purposely puke water on dear's t-shirt while we're at TCC. *HAHA* Well done wor!

So we watch eight below during mid-night. I know I'm quite slow cuz the show is up for quite some time. But yup, it's really nice, like what many others have told me. Love the dogs!!! They're so pretty~! So warm and touching yet it's featuring in winter... Gonna get the DVD man! *hee* Mom loves the dogs too.

My Sunday... Hmm.. as usual I spend so much time sleeping and helping his da-sao to personalized her HP. Man, it's tiring... After a short discusion with Joe ytd, ya we find her a bit taking things for granted and too demanding. Keep asking me to put in this song, that song (when her memory card is so small). Burn this song, that song (when some songs I dun even have). ArghzZz... ask me to find her lyrics (when it's so freaking easy to be found)... print out the lyrics with english translation (which I did)... asked me to reprint which i refused to (cuz the printer has no ink)... She even asked me to shake the ink cartridge so that ink will be out. I refused to, asked her to do it herself, and I excused myself upstairs to Zzzzz again...

Thou she said things like I'm li-hai and thank me etc (Well, I don't know if she really appreciates what I've done). But ya I felt guilty when she thanked me & still ll I could feel the annoyance for her neverending demand on the songs. She even asked me to burn a CD for her friend. For those who know me well, I seldom go the straight-forward way. But this time I choose to reply "Ask her to burn it herself... It's such a ge-kang thing" (i.e it's unnecessary extra task!!) Agree, my friends??? *Sweat* Once I got to the 3rd floor. I felt so much relieve...

So finally dear managed to have dinner with my family... Mom chose the restaurant at Sembawang. =P yeah, I like that place. Not oily and well-prepared. Just like mom's style. I ate a lot wor. & now I'm hungry already while typing these... *Food hunting time...*

FAT FERN FAT!!!

U'll never slim down!!!

I think I never really thought og dieting... HAA

Good Friday

Yo yo, Good Friday to all those christians our there. Happy long weekend to all the rest ^_^

Happy 21st birthday to all my friends who've just turned 21st!!! Last week was Stevie's... We had a mini celebration with him, hope it was good enough for him :) & thanks to Zhen who've gotten a great suitable gift for him.

& Zhen... Good luck to you cuz I know there're more gifts coming up for you TO BUY! HAHA Gave Emily a bag from BYSI, think she likes it too ^_^

SO I fell sick this Monday, after staying up late to force myself to watch the Korean Drama FULL HOUSE, with Rain at the main lead (Drools for his muscular bod!!!) Controller my diet as in no fried. & for this week, I finally realize and admit I'M FAT!!! Damn I'm seriously FAT now, even mom said so, as well as darling... Haha* How will a glutton ever stop the craving for food or delete the idea of not wasting food by swallowing the leftovers??? *Sigh* My stomach is seriously stretched to a much BIGGER appetite with Dave's horrible food ordering habit; filling the table with food! 2 servings to 3 servings... 4 servings to 5-6 servings... *Faint* Anyway I dun blame anyone lar. It's my problem to eat so much, yA?

So darling's xiao-huang has returned to % its original, slower and much much slower... And also a lil' bit SOT. They claimed that its TURBO is sot... Well I can't really describe, but yes I can feel the difference. Seriously WEIRD... & slow...

Bye bye little yellow... My first date was on you ^_^ You were my chiong roller-coasta... Claimed: & You were once an awesome head-tuner!~!!!

So since the 1st day I saw the original Xiao-huang, I finally understand THE ART OF ZENG CARS... Nono... that doesn't mean I know how to zeng car lar, but for now I'm able to understand more why car-freaks will do so much to their wives. But that's a hell lotsa money spent I believe. Some do it for speed, for looks (making it pretty or handsome), but I guess most of them do it for pride or should I put it as EGO??? Nah... it's interests, DUH...

So we sat on a new car today, borrowed from a friend. It's a white FAIRLADY (Oh yeah... my fairlady) Yeah really pretty in a re-made pearl white.

Not fast enough... Very selfish cuz it sits two only. Heavy...

Ex road tax too cuz 3500CC.. Overall not towards my likings thou interesting to ride on.

But EXHAUST loud and nice!! While we were at Paragon, an Ang Moh couple hand-signaled me some compliments to that Fairlady. *Just smile and feel shiok in the car, man.. Just smile~ HaAa* But here's quoted from Top Gear Mag I saw today at a Cafe: "Poor man's Porsche..." (Oh really? I didn't know that...)

So went Marina South to pa game with Pig's wife while darling was gaming with pig. No Initial D today and it's so not possible when I'm at Marina. *Blink innocently*

Anyway, great SAT ahead... Will be watching West Side Story with Zhen. ^_^ Will update again!!!