Feel that I got lots to write... but I seriously dunno where to start...

Went out with my dear friend just now n found out she's seeing n dating someone. Hee~ that's so nice, we've been waiting for her to fall in love and finally!

I have been having difficulty maintaining normal sleeping hour... hubby is complaining I'm not trying hard enough to adjust. I hate that feeling... It's annoying and frustrating at times that when I adjusted my sleeping hour back to singapore, I gotta adjust again when I am overseas. DAMN! Sometimes I just feel like quitting my job. So that I can be normal like many others n have the time to accompany all my love ones.

But so much I love my job too... I keep telling myself to enjoy myself when I'm working n overseas, my funny off days to do nothing or run tonnes of errands n do what I wanna do. I know very well that this kinda life will not be with me forever. In my heart, I know very well that I would not fly for long. N I can't see myself making flying as my career. I wanna have my own child after my contract. But I have a degree to complete. I would like to hold my traditional wedding soon. I know everyone is just waiting, but I am so lazy to plan again. Sigh. Think it's just me, goal-less.

I know some of u will wanna scold or nag at me for being like that; lazy.

I think I am just waiting for the contract to be up... then I'll change a job n buck up my life with a so-called 'normal' job. I can then attend all the lessons I have... I have arrange my time better to spend with my family... n yes, I can sleep normally... eat normally... n exercise normally... not feeling lazy anymore...

the IFS in the recent briefing session mentioned about having motivation after being stagnant in a job... he mentioned about promotion. Kao it never cross my mind before... I think I better get out of the airline soon...

but now that it's mentioned... why should I fear promotion???

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