.: Down :.

Sigh... I'm feeling very down I guess. Totally demoralized after yesterday's presentation. By the team and by myself. I'm so easily influenced by others.

All of a sudden, I feel that I'm so useless. Luck is no longer with me liao? My presentation skill has dropped, I cannot express myself well. Sometimes I talk to much, but it doesn't make me a person who speaks well. Partly you can blame it to my English sucks. I wonder if working under non pressured area has slackened my ability. I'm starting to doubt my potential. I'm good at nothing... I only knows a little here and there. No speciality. Sigh... I'm like those with 3-minute interests only. Have I ever pull through something? U see ah.. Like to sing, but sing for leisure. Like to dance, but no commitment. Lost my patience over the years.. I tend to summarise things to say/do. I've turned lazy...

I'm starting to doubt my ability. I'm like a baby for the outside world. I'm still that kinda dreamy dreamy kinda person. I haven't started finding a perm job. I'm still a pathetic temp office gal doing data entry, hoping one day someone will offer me a perm position in the marketing side. But I'll deifinitely start finding after that sickening project.

...Searching for onself -Stage 2- begins...

I hope to discover my new ability/potential in a new environment... *yawnS*

Life ain't that easy... even if you choose to live it simple, it's just a little too complicated to comprehend at times...